Once I have a booked flight – no matter where it is – I get giddy and excited that a trip is in my future!
My immediate reaction after booking my international flights shocked me.
I questioned myself.
Every negative comment I have heard about my plan came flooding at me.
It was the wee hours of the morning when I booked the flights but I needed some reassurance that I was doing the right thing.
Once I booked the international flights and the one domestic flight in Chile, I sent an email to A and C, who I am meeting in Chile. Here’s the gist of my email:
Am I a total nutjob and have I fallen off the rocker? I’m well on my way and flipping my shit! I’m totally freaking out tonight. Yesterday I finished all of my vaccines and today I am flipping out.
Please someone tell me I am doing the right thing. I know I am but I am second guessing everything right now. Why you ask?! I literally just booked my international flights ten minutes ago. Why this is freaking me out has me beside myself. It’s not like this was the first step of my planning process. I have gotten all of my vaccinations, I have bought my rucksack and have started to fill it, I have already put money down on a hotel (oh, a hotel!) to meet friends halfway through my trip and I booked an internal flight within Chile…yet booking my international flight scared the absolute crap out of me!? WHAT? WHY? HELP!
Thanks for the encouragement!! I so need to be reminded of the amazing experience ahead of me.Funny you say I am feeling alive. One of the best fortunes from a fortune cookie I ever read was something along the lines of ‘if you don’t do things that scare you, you aren’t really living.’
I eventually got to sleep, for three hours. The next day I was in a Chase Bank with a friend, I will call her V, as in Victor, and I told her I booked my flight and slightly freaked out. And then, I started crying.
So I did.
That night I went to bed at 6.30pm and thankfully I did not have work the following day because I did not get out of bed until 10am. It didn’t happen right away but I’d say after the initial 24 hours passed I had better perspective and renewed excitement!
C responded to my email with a quote that a friend of hers had told her when she made a move to Chicago.
Any type of change takes courage.
I like it.